From the outside looking in we were living a life that most people only dreamed of. We owned two successful businesses and had a big beautiful home on the water. We also had matching corvettes and a 50-foot yacht. I shopped ‘til I dropped, traveled often, and I didn’t have a worry in the world. I had a beautiful life, and it was absolutely amazing to experience this fairytale-like ending. But even then, none of these material things brought me real joy. The joy of living comes from within. Don’t get me wrong…I loved our life, but I felt like something much deeper was missing. That something was me. Yes, me. I felt like I lost myself inside of this great big old world in which I existed. I longed for meaning, passion, purpose, and fulfillment.
I was cautious for many years. I always took the logical approach and tiptoed through life while playing it small. I worked in our family business for over twenty years, and even though the business steadily grew and my life advanced beautifully, my very own dreams were stalled. The truth is I was trading my life for someone else’s dream. I was fading away, and all I wanted to do was leap forward with fullness and excitement. I craved to be in an atmosphere in harmony with my creative abilities.
I started to evaluate my entire life as I approached my late forties. I thought I had built a wall of protection around myself since I was a child, but it really turned out to be a wall of separation. This wall of separation kept me from being and expressing my authentic self. It kept me from pursuing my dreams and it also kept me from letting anyone else in. By holding onto painful and hurtful experiences throughout my life I missed out on the opportunity to live in the moment. Living this way only disconnected me from love, compassion, and understanding, the very energies I needed in order to shift my life as a whole. I wanted to create a life that I was truly proud of living. That meant creating a life I loved on the inside, not just one that looked great on the outside.
Thankfully I was introduced to my dear friend and mentor, Bob Proctor. As he began to speak, I sat in the audience completely captivated by his words. Everything Bob said resonated with me on a cellular level. Some of the highlights included: “let go and let God, lead with love, remain in a good vibration, serve others, be a good little giver, and hit send.” Yes! Hit send and move in the direction of life that makes you happiest. That’s exactly what I was striving for, but I was sick to my stomach when I realized I had spent years pursuing that version of myself, only to find out I was doing it half-assed. The truth was staring me right in the face. I was afraid to remove the wall. Through inner reflection, I began to know myself at the core. In doing so, I absolutely knew that I was living a life that no longer resonated with my inner-being. I also knew that if I wanted to pursue my dreams, ignite my potential, and live a life I loved, I had to embrace change.
My ego didn’t want anyone to see my weaknesses or my vulnerability, and as crazy as this sounds I didn’t even know who I was without my wall of protection. But it was time to remove it all. I have spent the latter years of my life removing, brick by brick, in the form of shedding ego, clearing away old conditioned beliefs, and shifting lifelong paradigms. I can honestly say I feel as If I have been searching for myself forever, only now seeing a clear reflection. Having a better understanding of who I am enables me to have a better understanding of others.
I am so grateful I had the courage to embark on a journey to transform my life. Little by little I broke through an invisible wall that separated me from the outside world. It isn’t what I did in the progression of my growth that matters, it is who I became. Today I am a more expansive being living a life that gives me life. A beautiful illuminated path was formed once I stepped into my power. There is meaning, fulfillment, acceptance, purpose, passion, and love present at all times, all of which I desired most in life. What it really boils down to is the betterment of ourselves. Transformation is the essence of spirituality. Trust in the power that is beckoning you to be, do, have, and give more. Be faithful to the most integral part of who you are. There is a beautiful life waiting to unfold for you. Nurture the part of you that wants to move forward. The entire world is waiting for your light. Don’t be afraid to let it shine.
Wendy Ditta is a businesswoman, entrepreneur, Best-Selling Co-Author of “Destinies” and author of the new book “The More I Learn, The More I Love”. Relentless in her commitment to her own personal growth and development, she has dedicated her life to be of greater service by teaching, inspiring, and empowering others to improve the quality and performance of their lives as a Certified Life Mastery Consultant. To learn more about her new book “The More I Learn, The More I Love” please visit: http://wendyditta.com/free-videos/